Today has been the today from hell! Got up this morning and want down to Oakland County legal aid, I wanted to find out some information about filing for divorce,( the cost and other things). As well as were I stood and what they think I should do in a legal out look, to protect myself. So afterwards there was something inside me saying to take the attorneys advice and I file a Personal Protection Order against Travis. That he is not to have any contact with me and me not with him. I’ve had a hard day. On top filing for that PPO and seeing my fairytale come crashing down and my heart braking into a million pieces. Not more then 30min after I got home from doing all these Child Portative Services called and said they were coming out in 30min; they were following up on something that had happened on January 19^th between Travis and me. They look at me and told me that if I hadn’t filed for that PPO against Travis today that they were prepared to take Kirsta from me, until I did so. I was like OH MAY, Thank you Lord! Just something in me today said I needed to do this. You need to Protected you and Krista. I had a bad feeling. I’ve cried all day and that just took me over the edge! I thank god for Kathy and Mom! If it wasn’t for them I couldn’t have ever gotten thought the day. Thank You from the bottom of my broken heart. I love you both so much. I’m going to be filing for devoice on February 6^th. I can go though an Oakland county program that will cut the fees for me, but that is the only day they meet. If you’re wondering how I’m doing now...I’m a mess!!! I’m crying anytime Kirsta’s not in the room. I will not let Kirsta see me cry, she’s seen to much as it is. All I have to do is breath and everything will work out. I can see now that god is looking out for me.

"Is There Life Out There"

She married when she was twenty
She thought she was ready
Now she's not so sure
She thought she'd done some living
But now she's just wonderin'
What she's living for
Now she's feeling that there's something more.

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

She's always lived for tomorrow
She's never learned how
To live for today
She's dyin' to try something foolish
Do something crazy
Or just get away
Something for herself for a change
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

There's a place in the sun that she's never been
Where life is fair and time is a friend
Would she do it the same as she did back then
She looks out the window and wonders again

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there